Woke up in a seriously pissy mood this morning. All I knew is I want to go home. Rocking on 5 months and that's usually my limitation. I know what will start up once I've reached it too... more pissy moods and nothing will be good enough or able to compare to home. Gosh, I'm such a bitch about it too. It's terrible. I get very tired of being alone. Everyday the guilt sets in that I'm selfish and I should be home with my family doing grandmother things, instead of here doing nothing, basically. Andy has to work ALL the time because that's what he does. And because I don't work here, I'm left with too much time to over think plenty. My new found feelings about a few friends has become so intense I don't trust it. I don't trust my thinking right now because I'm not busy. By that I mean..... I'm too idle in my life. If I was busier I wouldn't have time to think beyond the surface. Doesn't matter... don't think I'll be changing my mind much on that subject anyway. Just a random post of what the day has been like.. My ass hurts from sitting on it. Going to walk across the room now... Four walls and boredom, damn. I may get really resourceful and walk upstairs in a minute. And where the hell is the sun??